Being Numb

According to definition, numb means the incapability to feel emotions or actions. The state of mind where a person experiences lack of emotion.It can be due to grief, shock and other reasons. The phase of mind where brain executes actions and processes information out of habit.

From the past few days, I have been feeling numb. It has only been only few days and I am feeling like it has been like this since forever. Have you all felt like this? If yes then I dont have any solutions for you because I myself am still figuring out. If no, then a time will come when you would definately feel numb. Because, one thing I have learnt that humans in their lifetime however small or large it is, they feel every kind of emotion which possibly exists in this vast world. You see, we are humans which means the basic thing for us to feel emotions.

Believe me or not feeling numb is also an emotion. Just because it cannot be felt it doesnt means it doesnt qualify as an emotion. I compare numbness to the colour white. Everyone else can have different point of view and neither am I posing my opinion. Nope. I am just placing the unfiltered me in front of you all. So, from the school times we have known that white is a colour formed by the addition of all the basic colours which is VIBGYOR. And it still is considered as a colour aint it? yes. So numb is like the convergence of all the emotions for which the beings humans are largely famous for.

Now, feeling numb can affect people in different ways. Till now I have not met people who have felt numb, but if you have felt do share it. It would help you even it doesnt help anyone or someone gives you a weird look. So to me feeling numb has been a bliss till now. Since I consider myself an overly emotional person, this is new to me and truth to be told its like I am free from the constant battlefield in my brain. And for the first time I feel a tinging calm feeling. Like the aftermath of a turbulent storm, everything motionless and hushed. I would stand under the sun in the winter afternoons and cant rejoice the warmth of the sun like I used too. The noices, the chit-chat doesnt affect me, and I walk past them so swiftly like a feather falling from somwhere high. I have stopped having "preferences" and can go along with anything giiven to me whether its food or life. Like the water which flows irrespective of the suitability of places, I am progressing through places, people and life with such easeness. Now it feels such a bliss. The need to prove something, the need for having peace, the need to be loved by someone has been replaced by the aloof state of mind. Its like staring into space without processing any kind of perceptions and conclusions. Just gazing into nothingness filled with numbess.

If you people have felt like this, then worry not because everything has its phase. If it bothers much, talk to your go-to-persons, indulge yourself in activities and slowly you will come out of it. While it lasts, enjoy every moment of it irrespective of how you feel about it. Thank you.